Episodes

Do you ever feel you were just meant for something else? Meant to be somewhere else? Like the life you are living was not meant for you! I’ve been feeling that way for a while now and have been trying to figure out what I need to do or what I even want. But how? I have procrastinated, settled and made so many excuses that I have found my life becoming stagnant. Same thing day in and day out. Nothing different. Nothing exciting. Nothing changing. Everything the same. It's time to stop making ex...

Talking about death is difficult but funerals do tend to spark the conversation, but usually on a superficial level. It's not until you lose someone very close, having to plan a funeral and deal with the aftermath does it make you contemplate your own death. Death should not have us thinking about our dying. Death should have us thinking about living. How do you want to live the rest of your life? Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this journey with me. You can connect with me on thro...

We have all been pushed out of the nest in our lives. By our parents or unexpected circumstances in life. When death pushes us we tend to build a new nest for ourselves. A nest of grief, cozy enough for one. We can become comfortable there. With all your fears and resistance, you have to leave this nest. But how? Trust yourself. Listen to your intuition. Open your eyes. Open your heart and jump! I promise, there is a new nest ready to catch you! Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this j...

People ask me all the time how I came up with the podcast name Love is not dead, Just my husband. I have a slightly dark sense of humor and it was really me just joking around. I thought this podcast was going to be about me sharing funny stories of dating as a widow. Turns out I have a whole lot more to say. I used to think my journey was about being a widow, but it’s not. My journey is about love. But not in the way that people think. I honestly don’t think I really know what love is anymore....

I don’t normally share my experiences with psychics, mediums or tarot readings because everyone believes something different. I’m also not some hard core fanatic but I do enjoy it. I don't take messages from beyond too seriously but I do find comfort in having a reminder that Tom is still with me. We should probably know that our loved ones would want us to be happy, but sometimes we just want to hear it. And there is one little thing that has been mentioned so often that I can't help believe th...

Want to know a dirty little secret? Some widows are actually happier after the loss of their spouse! I am one of those widows! I am a widow that is actually living happier after. And it's not that I'm happy that my husband died but where I am in my life, I am happier than expected and that is something that is hard for me to share with other people. Sometimes there are circumstances in a marriage that some people just don't understand. In my case I found a sense of adventure that I didn't have...

Do you ever want to give a big F***K You to your spouse for dying? Do you ever feel guilty for saying bad things about your dead spouse? I hate that being a widow is so romanticized and I fell into that trap by idolizing my husband because you shouldn't speak ill of the dead. I don't want to disrespect my husband in any way but this is my story! And the only way for me to widow my own way is to acknowledge the anger I have towards Tom for dying and for the things that happened just before. This...

It’s ironic that as I’m trying to tell my story of how I learned to widow my own way and I am finding that I am experiencing a lot of the same moments now, almost 5 years later. Like, something is going to continue to happen over and over until I have actually learned my lesson. In today's episode I talk about being alone versus being lonely. This is something I have really been struggling with since Tom died but if I’m honest it’s something I’ve struggled with my whole life. I have always felt...

This episode was recorded on a whim right after my dog Vegas went missing! I have 2 dogs but these are not my pets by choice. Vegas an Old English Bulldog and Caroline a Pit Bull. Tom and I agreed that we would not have any more pets so we can have more freedom, but he broke that promise. He disguised Vegas as a birthday gift for me, but I called bullshit! As much as I tried there was no way I could resist his cuteness and puppy kisses. Everyone loved him and he soon became very spoiled. Then ...

When we lose someone that has been a major part of our lives, we may struggle with who we are without them. How can we let our identity become so wrapped up in someone or something that we forget who we actually are. We are more than just a spouse, a sibling, a child, parent, or a friend. How do we redefine who we are and rediscover this new version of ourselves? I have discovered that my identity crisis didn't come from becoming a widow. It was the death of my husband that has forced me to disc...

This episode may be a little controversial depending on where you are in your grief. Today I want to talk about support groups and the importance of finding one that is right for you. Being a widow means something different to us all. Our wants, needs, and expectations do not always align and are not the same as others. I’m a completely different widow today than I was after my husband Tom died. I did not like the bitter and angry person was becoming back then. I now have a much more positive o...

Grieving through the holidays is a tough one! Whether it is the first Christmas or the 10th, the loss of our loved one stays with us. This time of the year has a different meaning for all of us. I was really trying to think of something inspirational and hoping I could give you something meaningful, but the thing is I don’t celebrate Christmas like everyone else. So this Christmas I just want you to remember! Cherish the memories of the one you have loss and relive them with your family and frie...

So you’re a widow… Now What? If only there was a step by step guide! I don’t know about you but I need rules or instructions. There are little things that keep your mind occupied for a while, but then realization kicks in and you find yourself alone trying to figure out what to do next. Be prepared! It's going to suck but one thing death and cancer has taught me is that we all have limited time. If you are constantly worried about what is next, you are miss everything! Please subscribe to my p...

They say the first year of being widow is the hardest and in this episode you learn all about the good, bad and the ugly of mine. I learned was there is no right or wrong way to be a widow. There are no rules or expectations! Only the ones we put on ourselves. I definitely don’t have all the answers, but I can share my experiences in hopes that you can relate. Maybe you could even learn from my mistakes, if there are truly any mistakes in widowing. We are all figuring it as we go, just widowing ...

We are all told there is no right or wrong way to grief, but do we really give ourselves permission to do that? If you are still living up to the widow stereotypes this podcast is for you! Love is not dead… Just my husband is a podcast dedicated to widows and widowers who are looking for support and encouragement while moving forward in their grief. It’s time to actually widow your way! Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this journey with me. You can also connect with me on through soc...