Episodes

Few of us truly grasp the financial devastation Widows may face following the death of a spouse. In this episode we shed light on the realities of Widows having to adapt to a single income or no income at all. We discuss the misconception about everyone having life insurance and the tough choices that must be made to adapt to a new financial situation. However, it's not all grim. This conversation also uncovers ways we can lend our support to widows, both financially and emotionally. Perhaps yo...

As a widow, I needed a roadmap to navigate the chaos of grief. There were no clear steps, no printed guide, but I made it through the darkest times - and my experiences can help you, too. This episode is a raw exploration of my journey through the stages of grief. I share my struggles with acceptance, my evolving beliefs about the afterlife, and my quest for understanding the nature of death. In this emotional journey through widowhood, we also examine the confusion surrounding the stages of gr...

What if being a widow was less about holding a marriage certificate and more about the journey of healing and self-identification? What about those who have lost a significant other but never had the 'husband' or 'wife' title? This episode is dedicated to challenging the traditional definitions and understanding of widowhood. Lets recognize the the complex web of scenarios that stretch beyond the dictionary - women who were in committed relationships but not legally married. Lets propose a new ...

Ever felt misunderstood in your grief? Tired of the stereotypes and judgments that come your way as a widow? Well, Season 3 of Love is Not Dead is officially granting you permission to grieve in your own damn way. As your host and fellow widow, Rebecca, I'm here to provide a safe haven for you, where we can share our stories, challenge age-old misconceptions and erase discrimination from within and outside our community. Get ready as we tackle topics that you, our listeners, have suggested. Exp...

Taking a little break between seasons, I hope you enjoy this hilarious parody theme song created with my best friend's husband, Tyrone. Not only is he a constant source of support for Angie during her grief process, he also makes the time to check on me as well. I would have never made through the first year if it wasn't for Angie and Tyrone. The upcoming third season of the podcast is to challenge the norms, misconceptions, and stereotypes around this intense emotional journey. This season pro...

Can you imagine the strength it takes to move forward after losing your spouse and battling cancer? That's exactly what I had to do over the last five years since my husband, Tom, passed away. Through the immense pain and struggle, I chose to live for our son, dedicating myself to helping him succeed and find happiness. In this raw and emotional episode as I share my journey of grief, growth, and rediscovering happiness. As I navigated through my own grieving process, I realized that I may not ...

As we continue to navigate the ever-changing landscape of life after losing a spouse, we take a heartfelt look at the emotional, physical, and mental adaptations that come with grief, healing, and finding a new normal. From adapting to sleeping alone, a single income and parenting alone, to navigating loneliness and rediscovering laughter, we'll share the triumphs and challenges of moving forward after loss. Take a moment to look at where you were and where you are now. You may not see it, but ...

Do you ever feel like an imposter? Always hiding behind a mask pretending to be something your note! What if I told you that by taking off these masks, we can find true authenticity and even heal from loss? In this empowering episode, I discuss the various masks I've worn, including the painful mask of widowhood, and how removing it can lead to resilience, strength, and self-love. As we embrace our authentic selves, we acknowledge and celebrate the many facets of our identities beyond just bein...

What if you could overcome self-doubt and make confident decisions, especially in dating and relationships? How would that change your life? Today I share my own experiences of battling insecurities and learning to present my authentic self, maintain my boundaries, and wait for the love I truly deserve. Reflecting on my dating life over the past four years, I discuss the challenges I've faced in finding the perfect partner and how each date and relationship has helped me grow. I've learned to r...

We all have regrets! Things we want to take back. Things we want to go back in time to change if we could. There are some wrongs we can make right, but with death. It kind of puts a stop to it so we are stuck with could’ve, should’ve, would’ve. For better or worse, all the things we may regret make is who we are today. No matter if they were good or bad. I can make myself crazy thinking of all the things I could have done differently in my marriage, but is there anything I could have done to ch...

Many people feel that celebrating death anniversaries is part of the grieving process. Because we all grieve differently, how we choose to spend these death anniversaries will be different too. Death anniversaries can bring up feelings of sadness and grief, but it can also be a filled with happy memories. There comes a time for a lot of widows for many different reasons that we don't want to celebrate this anniversary anymore. My friend Matt from The Solo Dad Podcast shared a beautiful analogy ...

I am no stranger to loss. The sadness, anger, guilt, anxiety, tiredness, shock, loneliness, and confusion. One thing that I don’t think is talked about enough is feeling gratitude after a loss. Just like joy can coincide with grief, so can gratitude. It’s the choice you make to celebrate the positive memories instead of focusing on the negative emotions. It’s the choice to choose love over sadness. By choosing love and gratitude I have been able to look at my losses and gaining a new meaning o...

I had the amazing honor of being an Impact Speaker at the Women’s Wellness Fest in Jacksonville Florida 2 weekends ago. And man was I nervous! I had no idea what I should speak about. The topic changed about 3 or 4 times and then it finally hit me! It’s the whole reason I was back at the Women’s Wellness Fest to begin with… and why this event is so dear to me. It was at this event last year that my dear friend Mary Beth encouraged me to do public speaking or start a podcast. As I was deciding o...

I'm exhausted! I just finished a cross country road trip in 10 weeks and 3 days with 7,312 miles! This trip has been an amazing experience and an important part of my healing journey but has also left me exhausted physically. I was feeling guilty about not sharing an episode this week because I was so tired so I decided to share my thoughts and feelings on where I'm out right now in my life. I think it's important to take the time we need to rest so we can refocus and come out stronger! Please...

Grief has changed me. Every part of me. It has changed my everyday life, my morning routine. It has changed how I see the world. It has changed my outlook on life. It has changed my beliefs. It has changed how I interact with people. It has changed how I love. Grief is now my constant companion. I’ve let it define me in some ways and I’m okay with that because grief has also helped me grow. Without the tragedies that brought me grief I would not be the person I am today. I refuse to believe the...

One of the things I've hated about myself is how complaisant I've been my whole life, especially in my marriage. This has me reflecting on all my relationships now. I have always wanted nothing more than to be loved and appreciated. I have a hard time setting boundaries and saying no. I’m learning how to say no out of love and compassion for myself. I can still be nice and say no. Anyone who truly cares for me will not be upset, respect my decision and understand it came from a place of love. ...

I have a long list of things I want to do and places to go. I make some of the same excuses as most people. I need more money or time off work. But that has not been what has really stopped me. It's years of being told to keep dreaming and feeling like it's always out of reach. I am so done with making excuses of why I can’t go here and there or do this and that! I am finding ways to make my dreams of traveling come true! What are you waiting for? What is that one thing you want to do? That pl...

Do you ever feel trapped? Stuck in survival mode trying to figure out how to claw your way out? What does it take for you to escape a life of grief and sadness? We all have our breaking points but it's what we choose to do after that defines us. We have to find the courage and break free! There is a whole new life out there waiting on his. We just have to be brave enough to go get it! Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this journey with me. You can connect with me on through social me...

Welcome to season 2 of Love is not dead, Just my husband! We are all be forced to deal with unpleasantries in our life but we can't let these tragedies define us! There comes a time when we have to deal with our shit! We have to take responsibility for our own actions. Meaning, we have to decide how we want to respond to the tragedies we are dealt. Will you choose to break down or have a breakthrough? I don’t know about you, but for me it’s time for a reckoning. Please subscribe to my podcast...

Do you ever feel you were just meant for something else? Meant to be somewhere else? Like the life you are living was not meant for you! I’ve been feeling that way for a while now and have been trying to figure out what I need to do or what I even want. But how? I have procrastinated, settled and made so many excuses that I have found my life becoming stagnant. Same thing day in and day out. Nothing different. Nothing exciting. Nothing changing. Everything the same. It's time to stop making ex...

Talking about death is difficult but funerals do tend to spark the conversation, but usually on a superficial level. It's not until you lose someone very close, having to plan a funeral and deal with the aftermath does it make you contemplate your own death. Death should not have us thinking about our dying. Death should have us thinking about living. How do you want to live the rest of your life? Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this journey with me. You can connect with me on thro...

We have all been pushed out of the nest in our lives. By our parents or unexpected circumstances in life. When death pushes us we tend to build a new nest for ourselves. A nest of grief, cozy enough for one. We can become comfortable there. With all your fears and resistance, you have to leave this nest. But how? Trust yourself. Listen to your intuition. Open your eyes. Open your heart and jump! I promise, there is a new nest ready to catch you! Please subscribe to my podcast to continue this j...

People ask me all the time how I came up with the podcast name Love is not dead, Just my husband. I have a slightly dark sense of humor and it was really me just joking around. I thought this podcast was going to be about me sharing funny stories of dating as a widow. Turns out I have a whole lot more to say. I used to think my journey was about being a widow, but it’s not. My journey is about love. But not in the way that people think. I honestly don’t think I really know what love is anymore....

I don’t normally share my experiences with psychics, mediums or tarot readings because everyone believes something different. I’m also not some hard core fanatic but I do enjoy it. I don't take messages from beyond too seriously but I do find comfort in having a reminder that Tom is still with me. We should probably know that our loved ones would want us to be happy, but sometimes we just want to hear it. And there is one little thing that has been mentioned so often that I can't help believe th...